Wednesday, December 1, 2010


So, have you ever looked at someone that SHOULD be an inspiration, and known that they've worked incredibly hard for their success...but still said, well fuck. I'm a god damn loser. Have you?

I'm doing that now. I think maybe I need to seek some couselling or talk to a doctor about my energy levels. Is this normal? Ugh. I'm disgusted with myself. I've lost probably 3 lbs in the past three weeks. I'm still not at the weight I was maintaining. I'm sitting at a whopping 218.6.

Fuckity fuck.

Is there really truly a pot of skinny gold at the end of the rainbow, or are you all full of shit? It's gotta be me. I really can't be that paranoid that there's an entire community out there falsifying their weight loss successes....

or are you...
dun dun duuuuuuun


F. McButter Pants said...

I want to reach out and kick your butt....then hug your guts out.

Skinny isn't the the gold at the end of the rainbow. PEACE is what I hope I might find there.

Will be sending good thoughts your way.

thanks for checking in. I was just thinking about you.

Camevil said...

You're measuring your worth using other people. Or rather, images of other people. Bad, bad, bad!

It's winter. Get some sunshine and celebrate, don't punish yourself for losing a pouns a week. That's awesome!

Need to Get ME Back said...

I've thought that too! That's why I not only like to read blogs from people who have lost all their weight, but people like me who are just starting out and going thru the daily struggles. I'm in the same boat as you... don't be discouraged! I hope you are still working to lose weight and post something new soon so I can keep up with you :)