Wednesday, December 10, 2008

I'm horrible at this blogging thing...

I don't know why. Okay that's not totally true. I read all these other blogs and think, damn, that person has character! Or, you know, I wish I had something more to give than my day to day ramblings. Because really, my life is boring. I'm a full time stay at home mom, a part time leather slinger. I'm home and work. The only crazy shit that ever happens to me is at work, and even that hasn't been happening lately. It's been painfully slow in the biker leather business.

As for my weight loss, I haven't given up. I'm pretty sure that regardless of if or how much I slip at any given time, I know that I'm never going to give up. When I made the decision, and it was literally a snap decision, to get healthy...well that was it. Yeah the indulgence bug bites my ass sometimes, but I don't do too badly. And I've learned to limit my indulgences.

For probably the past month and a half I've been gaining and losing the same 2-4 lbs. I'm so so so close to hitting my 50 lbs mark but it seems so out of reach. I don't know if I've plateaued or if my body is just laughing at me. I just...don't know.

Exercise has been sporadic to non existant. I want to do it but I don't want to. I know it will aid in the weight loss and overall body health, but I just plain don't want to do it. Don't get me wrong, I feel great after I do it, and I feel great while I'm doing it, it's getting my head and body in sync and getting my ass off the couch and moving. Has anyone else had this problem? Does anyone know of a good way to just...get it done? Someone please help. I really think that beating the lazy out of myself is going to be the thing to kick start the weight loss. I don't know why that's not enough to get me moving....but someone please help me.