Monday, September 20, 2010

Amber has a day off...what?!

Ok guys, so I've just been maintaining. Floating somewhere between 211 and 215. Not where I want to stay, but not really gaining any significant amount of weight either. Thank the gods I learned SOMETHING! I've decided before I move on from this stagnant stage, I need to learn how to be proud of what I've done so far. I need to learn to be proud of my ability to even stabilize. Because after...oh at least six months...of sitting at this weight, I could have gained so so so sooo much back.

My girl Jules is a photographer and has to do self nudes. I'm starting to think, fuck, you know it's crazy that I can look at a million different women, in a million different shapes and sizes, and find so many beautiful things about them. But I look in the mirror, and I see flaw, flaw, flaw. What makes me different? Don't I deserve to look at myself with the same consideration?

So anyway, I know there isn't much to this little update, but it is what it is. I've finally got placed so I have a "home" branch for work now. Wish me luck, I start there tomorrow!

Hope you all are well, and hey, for those that have stuck around...thanks :)


wildfluffysheep said...

well helloooooooooooooooooooooooooo my lovely.

goodluck on the job. I am starting a new one soon. epp. exciting times.

i unfortunately gained alot so i would take your floating between 211 and 215 in a heartbeart. you are right it could be a lot worse.

stop looking at the flaws. RIGHT NOW.

F. McButter Pants said...

Thanks for checking in. Your maintaining. You have to count that as a victory.

Good luck with the job. I am looking for one myself

Fat Daddy said...

It would be so easy to just boof out when you hit those stages. I have not come close to matering the art of maintaining. I'm either going up or going down.

So I think it is a big deal.

Am I detecting a hint that you are thinking of posting self nudes? Boy! Talk about boosting follower numbers. I'm just not there yet. Although I did recently change clothes in a parking lot. So who knows what the future will hold.

big_mummy said...

woah girl where have you been??!

Well done on your floating, I am doing the same but about 10lb heavier than you... cant seem to get out of this plateau.. yet.

We are all the same you know, flaw flaw flaw. Sometimes we just need to grow a set and realise, whether we like it or not, this is me. plus y know, wanna see the pics and perv on ya ;)