It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

So food? Bad. Shred? Ok. Current WI. Up 1.4 from the 3 lbs loss from last week. So I'm less than half a pound from 75 lost...yet again. Oh yes I do love that roller coaster. However I'm chalking 3/4 of the gain to bad eating, 1/4 to PMS and water retention doom. Oh well.

Today I skipped a second day of Shredding. I was busy aaaaaall day, finally got home at 9 pm after hours of shopping, and hubby and kidlet took over the telly to watch the hockey game. It's now 20 after 11 and there's no way I'm gonna try it y'all. I'm sorry, call me a failure, I don't give no fuck. I'm too tired and sore to push myself tonight.

Also, I'm bored. Like so very very bored with the Shred. I don't think that physically I should be moving up to level three tomorrow morning, but I think I just may have to, otherwise I'm going to give up on the Shred and move on to other things. Like the wicked awesome bootcamp that I've yet to try (that the totally wicked awesome Tammy sent me for Christmas--what a doll!!!). So yesterday I skipped the Shred as well, however, I replaced it with 45 minutes of bellydancing, and at least 40 minutes of some Carmen Electra cardio strip love. Funny enough both of these would have had me huffing and puffing and dripping sweat months ago, last night I just got a nice toasty warm feeling. They're not even close to the intensity of the Shred which makes me like the Shred even more because I know my body needs it...but now I'm going to be on the hunt for more Jillian vids and Biggest Loser type vids. As much as I love Miss Carmen...she just ain't doin me the way she used to.

Christmas shopping is nearly done. Of course we've already gone over budget, finances would give me a heart attack and make sure I didn't gain a pound as I'd be too scared to eat due to massive amounts of nausea, if I let it of course. This year the holidays have hit me harder than I can remember. I'm aching for my family back in the States. I love my hubby's family, but it's never the same, and they don't fill my soul the way my family does.

I'm looking forward to January! On the weekend of the fifteenth I'll be working a few hours for a couple days at the Edmonton Bike Show. I told hubby that if it were possible I'd work only shows and I'd love it, but there's an atmosphere at a show that could never ever compare to standing behind a till, and in order to work these shows as I know them I'd have to be standing behind that till fairly regularly. So nope. He was great though, he said if I wanted to travel all over Canada and the US and be a major rep for a bike he'd totally support me, but I can't do that either. I have a little boy, he needs his mum, and I need him. But it really did make me feel wonderful to hear that.

I don't know if I'll be posting again before Christmas, if I don't, I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and an amazing New Year!

Update

Since I've been away from the comp I've missed exactly one day of my shred so today marks day 15 for me. I missed because I've developed an ear infection that has left me half deaf in one ear (but may or may not recover hearing) and the day after I saw the doc I didn't get off the couch other than to pee or go to bed.

I fought myself to shred today.

I have been riding a low for sometime now, tried to pull out of it but it never lasts, today I feel like I've nearly hit bottom.

I won't bore you all with the details. Just know that I miss the positivity of the blogger community.

Day 7 level 2

Oi. Good times I tell ya! Level two was definitely more challenging but I soooo need it after the extra easy time of level one. I'm now dripping sweat again and it feels great!

I've got a week off of work so blah...e-mail me people and keep me company!

Self love:



Yes I did just post a pic of my ass.

Look at that curve baby!

Days 5 and 6

Shred completed for both days (woot) tomorrow I start level 2! Wish me luck y'all!

Yesterday was a very very slow day at work. Then when the munchkin got home he was crying and running a very obvious fever, coughed like a 4 pack a day smoker, and was so unbelievably lethargic. Off to the doc we went. 2 1/2 hours and a missed nail appt later and we were handed some antibiotics to treat a viral infection. I know I know, they won't do dick all for what's ailing him, but apparently it may keep any bacterial infection from forming while his immune system is compromised. Let's just say I was not impressed with this foreign doctor. And that's me saying it nicely.

Today I was supposed to head to Shopper's and get pics copied and stamps for Christmas cards etc etc...well with Tony sick it didn't happen. So I have to attempt again tomorrow. And do laundry because I bailed on that today and instead made scrumptious choco chip cookies. Don't worry, I didn't eat them all.

This morning's WI brought 2 lbs back onto my fatty mcfatterson body. Not impressed. The only reason I'm not giving Jillian a big fat fuck you and tossing the vid into the trash is because I'm in this with Tammy. Seriously. Jillian you're lucky you've got Tammy to back you up otherwise I'd break your skinny ass like a twig. For real.

Fuck it, it's day 4

Shredded a bit late today. The kidlet had only a half day so I let myself sleep a bit more and got the Shred in after he'd left for school. I want to clarify for y'all, I DO eat breakfast! Just not before I workout.

I'm getting very annoyed with my body. Thus far my daily WI is showing a 1.3 lb gain. Not happy.

Level one is getting too easy, I'll be bumping up to level two by Monday at the latest.

Self love...well hubster still didn't upload pics so I'll share an old one:



Yes I love my shoes. They are sexy shoes, but that's not what I'm lovin at the moment. Check out my ankles. I know that's a wierd thing to say...ankles...but really. I've always been big, but my ankles never have been. The only time I experienced the pain of cankles was when I was pregnant. Otherwise I've always had strong but slender, sexy beautiful ankles. I heart them.

Shred day 2

Does anyone else know how awkward working out while wearing a thong is?

Next time I vote commando.

Also, I hate making breakfast. That's right. The fat girl doesn't want to eat in the morning.

Shred off Day 1 (or 2?)

Alright dudes and dudettes, I completed today's Shred without feeling like I was going to go to the dark side, woohoo! I actually felt pretty good after today's shred, and had a nice bowl of oatmeal after my workout. Cam you asked if I eat before my workout, I do not. I can't eat before a workout. I know I know it's not the best idea in the world but I know if I don't get up and get my workout done...it WILL NOT get done at all. So I just do it yo. Then I eat.

I've been setting the alarm for 4:30 am hoping that I can snooze my way to getting up at 5 am. I'm still averaging about 5:15 that I start my workout and that's just too damn late. I hate rushing to get lunches made and get my shower in and get ready for work and all that shit, and it seems like I get frantic doing that after my workout.

So, no body love pics as of yet, although maybe through my most recent progress pics taken this morning I can just pick something out of them. I need to get on it yo! And my hubby dearest needs to get the damn necropsy pictures off my camera. I'd have been more apt to take tons of self love pics and pic from any one of them but with the necro pics there's no way dude. I don't want to see froggy innards. The only reason I took the damn progress pics was because I told Tammy it's the easiest way to SEE the results...and it's true!

So to reveal my horrible disgusting befores:





Ok...nope. There's nothin I can do to pull some positive out of those pics. And I swear if you judge me I will find you and break your damn nose.

Now for more ugliness...my measurements:

Arm: 14 3/4
Chest: 42 1/4
Waist: 39 1/4
Hip: 52 (I think I'm going to puke)
Thigh: 26 1/2
Calf: 16

There it is, all my shame in all its fatty glory. Jillian better kick my ass this month.

Until next time...